Truth-telling Thursdays: The Social Anxiety Monster.

Until 3 years ago, this is what my beach life looked like. EMPTY. This isn’t a metaphor for anything. No connection to my infertility journey.This is my anxiety convincing me that I needed to be off the beach any time I went, before everyone else showed up – or else… I was born and raised […]

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Wellness Wednesday: Saying no to family gatherings.

I realized I was done with large, if not most gatherings – hosting, or attending, when a brand new jar of locally made ketchup, a gift from a friend, crashed onto my kitchen floor. Enough was enough. My mental health, having some grasp on my anxiety, was more important. It started way back, when I was a […]

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Wellness Wednesday: Using a smartwatch to track stress and anxiety.

In August, I started wearing a hybrid smartwatch on the regular. The most interesting part of it all is: I wanted a hybrid smartwatch because I wanted the notifications from my phone at my wrist when my phone wasn’t near, and to better, more comfortably track my day-to-day. I tried wearing my Garmin Forerunner 235 […]

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Unpacking mental illness: Early years and relationships.

“That’s so petty.” I remember in fifth grade, one day, sitting at the lunchroom table with a group of people that I was friends with at the time. The conversation, about someone in another group. Making fun of, calling that person names. Everyone chiming in something that, every other 10 year old at the table, […]

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It’s Okay To Not Be Okay.

I’m still here. I’m still alive. Life has just caught up, and crashed into me in such a crazy way, that some days, I don’t even have time to catch my breath before the next day starts. I’m still writing. I’m a writer at heart, and that Notepad app on my phone gets put to […]

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Selfcare: Taking time on mental wellness.

There are very few things in life that you absolutely cannot change. How you chose to live is not one of those things. I was 10 years old when my mental wellness began to shift. Only 10 years old. It almost consumed me, depression, as I grew older. It sat there, in the driver seat, […]

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Reflections: Another year gone, happy birthday!

I still hold value to that my life’s experiences, be it positive, negative (or really negative), create, and shape exactly who I am today. I started another journey around the sun last week with the celebration of my day of birth, and it always seems to be the time I look back on the year […]

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Beach week and mementos. 

It all started with a piece of blue sea glass. Blue and purple are colors you don’t typically come across on the beach. It’s always green and brown. On several occasions, white. Then the odd, almost translucent rock that my 17-month old picked up with an excited “Rock!” It had been exactly one year since […]

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